We're both such magnificent liars.

Aren't we though...

Ahem...

  Anyways. I am just sitting here bored. Some one's been calling for like 5 minutes but i can't find my phone! Jesus. Bow chicka bow wow... Ummm This is so incredibly pointless. Nick got me in a tbs mood so now I cant get them outta my head. I COULD BE YOUR BEST BET LET ALONE YOURE WORST EX. I WANNA HATE YOU SO BAD... BUT I CAN'T... Hmm. Sorry. Outburst. Mmm I found a mini crunch bar! Yumm. What is 'to cook' in spanish? Cocinar? Cocina is kitchen... cocinar i think. I dunno. I keep thinking about what Ms Isaac said. I don't know why. "Jessica you gotta talk to the other Jessica". And I knew what she meant... and I just nodded. Pointing crap out like that to me, agh. If only she knew. *shakes head.* DON'T BOTHER TRYING TO EXPLAIN ANGEL I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT GOES ON.... Mmm.... Wowza. Haha I have never said that before. Listening to tbs is getting me maddish like. I dont know why. Take the time to talk about it think a lot and live without it don't believe me when I tell you it's something unforgivable best friends means, well best friends means You never knew well i never told you... everything I know about breaking hearts .. i learned from you... I need to stop listening to TBS so you won't have to deal with lyrics every two seconds. Lol. But I can't help it. I wanna read "What my mother doesn't know". AGAIN. For like the 10th time. I love that book so much. Its so good man. I love it. Must read. I'm finding Jay's Journal to give to Mark. That was actually the best book ever written. It is so good. I remember reading it for the 1st time and I was shocked that this is the journal of an actual guy who killed himself. I've got the mic and you've got the moshpit. This was the most pointless entry ever.

Its times like these when silence means everything!

I KNOW YOU WELL ENOUGH TO KNOW YOU NEVER LOVED ME!
~Jessi



Yay I only said LIKE once... score

1. Name: Jessica
2. Nickname(s): Jochum, Jessi, Bebe, Eggie, Yoke, Yoke'um Jay, the golden egg...  

1. Been so drunk you blacked out :  no
2. Missed school cuz it was raining: sure who hasn't
3. Put a body part on fire for amusement:? uh..I don't recall

4. Been hurt emotionally:? yes
5. Kept a secret from everyone:? yes
7. Cried during a Movie:? HAHHA i cried during lilo and stitch... dear lord
9. Ever thought an animated character was hot? me and jamies obsession with haku and tombo... hahaha
10.Had fantasies:? who hasn't
11. Been on stage: plenty of times
12. Cut your hair?  myself? ...yes

 

----FaVoUrItEs----
13. Shampoo:? this kiwi melon stuff i had once... "Jessi... your.. hair... smells... good..." -kara
14. Soap:  whatevers in the shower

15. Color: didnt i answer this already

16. Day/Night: and this
17. Summer/Winter: and this too?!

18. Lace or satin: umm?
19. Fave cartoon Character:  ah man...
20. Fave Food: mmm bagels
21. Fave Advert: ?
22. Fave Movie: st elmos fire... bueller.. pretty in pink... totoro!... kikis delivery service... many more
23. Fave Ice Cream:

24. Fave Subject: fashion tech and english definately
25. Fave 'normal' Drink(s): kiwi strawberry snappleeee

26. Fave Person to talk to: i like to talk to different people about different things... i tend to get into "deep" conversations with jamie b

 

 

RIGHT NOW------------------

 

27. Wearing: answered this already

28. Hair is: down and stupidified
29. I'm feeling: bored bc i am doing this
30. Eating: cheetos
31. Drinking: capri sun
32.Thinking about: nothing
33. Listening to: punk rock princess by something corporate just ended so now this is how we will meet by september satellites

 

 

 

IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------

 

34. Cried: 24 hours ago was 12 so no! WAHOO.. but.. 28 hours ago... yes

35. Worn a skirt: no
36. Met someone new: yup 
37. Cleaned your room: yup
38. Done laundry: nope
39. Drove a car: nope
40. Kissed someone: yup

 

??DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------

 

41. Yourself: you have to

41. Your friends: of course i love them
42. Santa Claus:  yeah man
43. Tooth Fairy:? no...

44. Destiny/Fate: yes and no
45. Angels: yup
46. Ghosts: yup
47. UFO' s :yup

48. Love: of course i believe in love

 

 

 

--------FRIENDS AND LIFE--------

 

48. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope
49. Like anyone?: these questions are so repetitive

50. Who's the loudest:  and again
51. Who's the shyest: and again
52. Who's the weirdest: theyre all weird
53. Who do you go to for advice: mostly jamie b and bebe and jill and willie, theyre really good listeners, thank you guys
54. Who do you cry to? same as above
55. When did you cry the most:? when stupid crap happens
56. What's the best feeling in the world? knowing you have snapple downstairs and a bagel waiting for you and all is well in the world of Jessi

Woke up at 9. Not cool. I had a bad headache (not one of those migraines thank god, I would have kill myself.) and my stomach hurt last night around 11ish, but I only have the headache now. Bllleh. Figures its my day off, huh? I have a cough too, it sounds so retarded. Its all like... wimpy.. and retarded.. Kinda like.. a.. well I cant describe it. Today I guess Ill just hang out around the house and watch movies (if my ps2 doesnt kill the discs.) I think I will watch how the grinch stole christmas (the cartoon one!) I havent seen that mobie in like... 10 years. I wish I had some Christmas Tradition and watched it every year on christmas eve, but I have no traditions. I guess this year I'll have to make some one. WIll I stick to them? Probably not.
I feel tons better about Bebe and Shane. I really do. I wish them the best of luck and loveee to them! Yay, lol.
I'm gunna try to get some hw done and watch the grinch!
Love until later,
-Jessi 

my name is spoken and it sounds better than it ever could on any lips but yours!

P.S. I am gunna cut down on saying "Like". I say it way to much. Atleast I'm not all like "Like like this and then like this happened like like totally." At the end of every entry Ill see how many "likes" i put in. Hopefully it will help me cut down.

Man, I am so tired. Scott just left and all I have to say is yawn. We watched simpsons, daria, and harry potter. How that added up to 5 hours.. I will never know. No anime was involved - shocked. I guess thats all I can say...? Hehe. I am amazed b/c I -shared- my -last snapple-. I love my snapple to much to share the last one but I shared! GO ME. Sammy (my dog) didnt like Scott. She kept on growling and barking at him. That never happens. Sammus loves everybodaaay! Ahh well. Buttons though was nice to him... weird. I never realized how long Harry Potter was.... hahaha. I haven't seen that movie in forever. We were gunna watch Family Guy but the ps2 was being retarded and like eating the disk. It was going Mahhrdhfhgsdfsdfds. Seriously too. My jacket smells like axe! I wonder how. Hmm. Maaaan I am sooo tired. I feel mucho better about the situation from earlier today. So in conclusion today wasn't so bad, was it? "You're so hot I have to blow you out!" hahahah oooh dear lord... Welp, I'm "outie"
Love until sooner or later,
~Jessi

"Jessi dunny #dos, you are not supposed to cry when wearing a cute outfit. Its like... against the law."
-Natalie dunny numero uno in math


One thing. When you do cry. Take off your eyeliner or mascara or whatever beforehand. Me and Bebe looked like we were crying the whole day, when it was only for 15 minutes. And I don't even wear mascara.

Listening to Boxcar... we all know what that means..

This is such a complete rant. Don't criticize what I write. If you dont like what you read, then don't read it.

So... Jessie Bebe and Shane are going out. Yeah... I saw them before 1st period. I ran to 1st period and sat and thought. Then bebe came in and I told her "I know" so she didn't have to say it. Once I said that I started crying. Then she started crying. God. I couldn't believe it. We only had a few things to do in Math so after that Jessie came and we talked... and cried. Everyone looked at us like we were so retarded. She is so nice she said "I won't go out with him if you don't want me to" Yeah, I don't really want her to, but I'm not gunna be some selfish person about it. We cried some more and then we went outside and sat down on the dirty hallway ground up against the lockers and guess what we did? Cried some more. I felt like a complete dill hole for making her cry b/c I was crying. Sorry bebe... I still love you, lol. Then I went to spanish where I only had a single tear fall down my face and then we ate cake. Cake solves all problems. On the way to 2nd saw them together... Eh... Why does it hurt? I thought I was over this. Over him. I'll have to become friends with him sooner or later bc I am NOT giving up me and jessies friendship. Sorry... but... no... Then went to fashion tech with Jessie... we didnt cry. YAY. We just.. sewed. It was like we got divorced b/c I got my own bag for my crap in that class now so I hda to move all my stuff from her box to my plastic bag. In some odd way it was depressing, b/c in my mind it was symbolizing something more. But Ill get over it... God, I hope so. I feel like such a stupid ditzy girl and I hate it. I'm reminding me of all those girls and it makes me mad to know I am like them. God, I am them. I'm sorry Jessie. For what, I'm not sure... but, I am. I hate it when people ask "Whats wrong?" to me, because it reminds me of what is wrong and I jsut want to get the heck away from there. Like, Ill try to talk to someone about it, then Ill end up shutting up and not getting anything I want to say out b/c I am scared to, and I hate it. Lunch sucked. The whole friggin day sucked. I cant get it off my mind and I feel so retarded. Scotts coming over in less than 2 hours and it figures he has to come over today of all days. Today is more of a 'anti social i need to think' type of day not 'yay lets hang out' day, but I'm sure we'll have fun, bc we always do. Today was a test of me and jessie's friendship i think, and if it was, we passed... b/c I still love her like the bebe she is (not in a sexual way lol). Mmm I want some more comfort food. Aka Salt and Vinegar chips -  thanks sammy. Well...
 

Yes. Still.

MmMmMm. Don't even ask. Dinner was good. Goody good good. I had an overdose of bebeq (lol) sauce i almost died. It was so hot. Like... yes. At the movies - i know i will forget to tell her so i must put it in here - i saw JOSH DYER. He grew his hair out and it looks so dumb. Ahhhrrr. Evil man hoe. That her should know who she is now *winks*. So uh anyway after my OD of BBQ (bebe!) sauce my stomach hurt.. to much intake... I only have 15 peices of gum to last me this week. Have you noticed I am ADDICTED to gum? I am chewing it right now. I am hardly ever not chewing it. Mmm, yummy goodness of Gum. Eeeeooo! My fav song is on! YAAAY! ONE DAY I WILL REALLY FIND OUT THESE THINGS THEY TEND TO CRASH....! Eeeeheehee Yaaaaaaieeee. Haha "Yaie" Sure why not. I have to de-embarassify my room before tomorrow but i know while he is over I will find something and be like "I hope he doesn't notice that..." it always happens. The only person I dont bother messing with my room before they come over is well, Kara, Jill and Diana. The rest I'm like clean clean clean. I better do that before Simpsons comes on..
JESSIE BEBE.... YOU DARED ME... Will I? Probably not... I triple dog dare me.
Love until tomorrow,

-Jessi (Bebe hun, eggie, wife, french, marley... could go on forever)

You Cotton Headed Ninny Muggins!!!!

Wheee I heart Elf.

Such a good movie... They were out of Banana Strawberry smoothies so I had to settle for sprite. (Hahha ashleyyy "something light to drink so you can refreash your self like sprite" i remembered!) Mmm. The theatre was paaaaaacked so me and scott had to sit in the 2nd row! Talk about neck crampingness. This like 11 year old dude sat two seats away from me and he kept looking at me and scott. It was weird... but I dont think anyone noticed but me. Oh well. I'm writing and awaiting dinner. Mashed potatoes and chicken tenders - yummay. I heard Redskins won - wah...and hoo. The whole time at the movies I kept singing Snowfall Around 10 (GEEZ I am in love with Sept. Satellite... I need to get their CD instead of listening to these 4 songs on repeat.) I added my movie ticket to the door to cover up some empty spaces. YOURE ARMS ARE OPEN TO ME TONIGHT! Sorry, song outburst. All in all, I had a great time at the movies. Tomorrow should be fun when me and him have our Movie Day (finally.) and then we have Tuesday off. Sweet... Tomorrow will go by reeeally slow. I bet. I know... Well, DINNER!
Love until later,

Amanda: guys are impressed with girls who know about football
PaleGreenStars53: well.. i know some about football. like the basics.
A: like what
PaleGreenStars53: like when the guy runs across the line its a touchdown

Wow... just wow... Eeep. Eeehehe. Alright so around 7:40 I decided HEY ITS LUNAR TIME! So I went outside in nothing but my sweatpants, slippers, t-shirt, and Scotts jacket (i dont think ill give it back to him.)  I was freezing... Around 7:50 Miran called and we watched the lunar eclipse via phone. "Look!! Its getting SMALLER!!!!!!" hahaha. Then she had to go around 8 i guess and I just sat outside and watched, it was so pretty, but its the kind of thing where you need someone to be with you... *sigh* Around 8:30 I was freeeeezing but I didn't wanna go in, but thankfully my mom told me to get inside bc i was gunna get sick. 45ish minutes outside in freezingness. Very nice. Then I went upstairs in my room and got my blanket from the game and stacked up to pillows by the window and turned off the lights. I found my poetry book 'tumbling into tomorrow' (the one with MY poem in it.. yay i've been published! to bad it was probably a scam..) and so I turned on my Lava Lamp so I could see the pages. I read and in between poems glanced up at the moon. I had Something Corporate playing - man it was a nearly perfect moment. Then around 9:10 Miran called and we were watching it again "Look ITS GETTING BIGGER!!!!!" Hahaha. Then around 9:25 I came here. Clouds are in the way now. Eh. My glowstick IS STILL GLOWING. Jesus. I must be starstruck.  
Love until later,
jessi