This card, postmarked December 23.

Thursday, November 13

Feelin better!

UNCSoccer07: i just kicked jared down below!!!
amanda: OMG sweetie r u alright?
jared: i'll be fine (a pain voice)
amanda: i'm so sry (trying not 2 laugh)

he is just sitting here!! LOL
UNCSoccer07: good he got up now i can die of laughter!!!

UNCSoccer07: haha
UNCSoccer07: jared just said he has a new g/f
UNCSoccer07: guess who that is......................
UNCSoccer07: lol....... u!
PaleGreenStars53: hahahahahaha
PaleGreenStars53: i love you jared
UNCSoccer07: u would never kick me like SHE did (this is jared)
PaleGreenStars53: oh no
PaleGreenStars53: never

xlilAngel869x: take ur eggs n yoke em

Man, I've been on this earth for 14 years and it takes people til now that my last name can be that... hahaha... kinda sounds japanese "yoke em!" or like some redneck thing.... from Handcock(man you guys can't hear my redneck accent! Rawwr).

Hancock is so retarded.
But I love it.

I just hate the people.
I made on friend over the summer, last summer, at the han(d)cock pool thing. She was 3 years younger than me, but in hancock, that will do. We were getting along until her brother - my age - came into the picture. I forget the girls name so we'll call her Susie. Her brother is Edgar, ok? Ok.
Susie: OOOH MY GAAAAWD
Me: what?
Susie: MY BROTHER SAID HE WANTED TO TOUCH YOUR BOOBS!
Me: Huh?
Susie: OOOOOH MY GAAAAAWSH HE SAID YOU HAD NICE BOOBS
Me: *Laughs... dies*
Edgar: *comes up to me... gives me that look like checking outness*
Me: Nuh uh! Ew.

Then when I was leaving 'Susie' came up to me. She asked when I started "to get boobs". Omg I died... I laughed so hard..... hahahahahahha... Wow, good times. Well, then I was like "ewww shes sick", even though she is, i find it funny now. Good times up in hancock. The pastors son. Tee. Hahahaha man I go there tomorrow! Score. Wait. That means baby sitting. Oh, good lord.

Posted at 08:45 pm by BlackandWhite
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My eyes are burning

seriously, they are.

ow.
i bit into my grilled cheese which just off of the stove. it burned my lip so bad my eyes watered.
double ow.
and triple merde.

on the brighter side (IM NOW THE GIRLFRIEND OF A SEX GOD) (Sorry, book inference, lol, that was a great book, no?) Diana and Nick are going out. My freshman friend I've known since 6th grade but only became really good friends with til 8th grade, and Nick... the... senior... Well I gots ta' be happy for her, but nick- YOU BREAK HER HEART ILL BREAK YOUR LEGS!!! (Sorry again, it just seemed to fit.)

On the extrememly dark side of the moon, Amanda thinks I am "retarded" (to put it the very nice way) for not going out with Scott right now. Theres to much junk going on, and I am willing to wait.

UNCSoccer07: u are a *edited part*
PaleGreenStars53: yes,
PaleGreenStars53: yes i am
UNCSoccer07: just got ur email
UNCSoccer07: OMG
PaleGreenStars53: chill
UNCSoccer07: U ARE BOTH DUMB
PaleGreenStars53: gee thanks
UNCSoccer07: god when he does u wont like him anymore or u will break up like a week later.. take it from someone who knows but hey its ur decision lol

Bleh. I've said we've had enough so turn that radio off... Sorry... Mah. Man. Well,
Love until later (as always man)
~Jessi

Posted at 07:25 pm by BlackandWhite
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4th

4th time i've tried to update. hate the power for going out again. and again.

random thoughts on my day:

IT SUCKED.
I STILL HAVE HIS JACKET.

MADE FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS.
MINE LOOKS LIKE CRAP.
WROTE A HEART BREAKING NOTE FOR HER.
WAS AVOIDED ALL DAY.
DIANA LEFT DURING LUNCH WITH THE SENIOR, NICK.
SHE SKIPPED.
WITH HIM.
IN HIS CAR.
TO HIS JOB.
SHE'S CHANGING.
SAMMY WAS SICK.
SCOTT DIDNT SIT WITH US AT LUNCH.
MITCH WASNT HERE.

JUST ME AND JAMIE AT LUNCH.
POWER WAS OUT.
HAD A HEADACHE.
WANTED TO SHOOT ALL THOSE IDIOTS FOR MAKING MY HEADACHE WORSE.
JESSIE BROKE UP WITH SHANE.
STILL FEEL THE SAME.
ASHLEY IS "MAD" AT ME FOR MY RESPONSE.
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY.
HELP.
OUT OF TYLENOL.
THIS MUSIC SUCKS.
HEADS UP SEVEN UP IN MATH.
PICKED BEBE.
A SENIOR GUY SLAPPED ME IN LSN.

IT HURT.
REALLY BAD.
I HIT HIM BACK.
WITH MY WUSSY PUNCHES.
HE DIDN'T FEEL ANYTHING.
BUT I GOT SLAPPED.
OW.
LOST MY FRIENDSHIP BRACELET.
READ THE RAVEN.
GREAT POEM.
VERY GREAT INDEED.
WARRENS HANDS ARE ALL MESSED UP.
HE CANT WRITE.
MY FRIENDS ARE CHANGING.
I AM STILL THE SAME.
AS ALWAYS.
UGH.
JILLS SHOW IS TONIGHT.
I WISH HER MUCH OF LUCK.
SHE DESERVES TO BE IN THE SPOTLIGHT.
MUCH LOVE TO HER.
GO FISH.
THIS SENIOR TALKED TO ME ON THE BUS RIDE HOME.
SINCE DIANA LEFT.
"WILL YOU GO OUT WITH ME" SAYS THE SENIOR
"THATS BULL AND YOU KNOW IT" I SAY
"NO ITS NOT"
"BULL. BESIDES.... NO."
"EXACTLY."
HE WAS MAKING A POINT TO SHANNON.
OR SOMETHING
I DONT CARE.
THE POWER KEPT GOING OUT.
ME AND DANIELLE COMPLAINED ALL HEALTH.
ABOUT.
GUYS.
GO FIGURE.
WE'RE GETTING TO BE GOOD FRIENDS - ME AND DANIELLE.
I AM HAPPY ABOUT THAT.
SHE'S REALLY NICE.
AS THE DAY WENT ON I REALIZED I REALLY WAS BEING AVOIDED.
THANKS.
IT WAS COLD OUT.
WORE SCOTTS JACKET.
DIDN'T SEE HIM AT ALL....
IM THIRSTY.
AND COLD.
AND MY HEAD HURTS WORSE FROM THINKING.
AND FROM MY COLD THING.
I HATE MIGRAINES.
SCARY GUY IN HEALTH TALKED TO ME.
I WANTED TO PUNCH HIM.
NOT A GOOD DAY FOR ME.
DONT GIVE ME THAT PMS CRAP EITHER.
CUZ IM NOT.
JUST NOT IN A GOOD MOOD.
I'LL BE FINE.
ALWAYS AM.
DUKE OF SPOOK IS DONE.
HES SO RETARDED.
SPOOK THAT IS.
BUT HE IS.
SO AM I.
BUT WE ALL ARE.
*SHRUGS*
OH.
TWO YEARS AGO TODAY
I EXPERIENCED MY FIRST "REAL" HEARTACHE.
MAN.
THAT SUCKED.
WELL OF COURSE I AM OVER IT NOW.
BUT THINKING ABOUT IT.
*SHIVERS*
ADVICE TO GUYS.
AND TO GIRLS...
DO NOT TELL YOUR SISTER TO BREAK UP WITH YOUR GIRLFRIEND FOR YOU.
LOL.

NEVERMORE.

Posted at 03:54 pm by BlackandWhite
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Wednesday, November 12

nighty night sleep tight

Guess what?

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f   u   p
f   e   a
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sorry ISJ from last year... ahh... good times.

but scott asked me out. Haha I am typing in black.... but I dunno what to say either... dun dun dun.. dunna! I think ill say yes but then again... i am under the influence of this medince. I dunno... Meep. I like him ! I do ! But... commitment? Welp.

Posted at 09:16 pm by BlackandWhite
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My sick day

So last night I went to bed at 8:30! Geez. I woke up at 6:15, feeling really out of it and sick so I stayed home. Then I woke up at 11 and watched Maury (soemthing about guys sleeping with teenagers and getting them pregnant) and then around 12 went to sleep again. I woke up at random times and looking at the clock and then going back to bed. Once I woke up in the closet... Wtf?! I have no idea. Must've sleep walked... or something... So anyway then I woke up around 2:15-2:30 and got online for about 20 minutes then put in Home Alone and fell asleep. Somewhere during that Mark called me but I don't remember what we said. I was half-awake. Then I went to bed and woke up around 6, took a shower, and then watched TV til now and I am here. How eventful, huh? I'm sure a bunch of things happened today, as they always do when I am sick. But that's okay b/c I feel like they weren't good things ? I don't know. But I'm good, just a little sick. But thats what I get for...sharing drinks.. with Scott, huh? Ah well, I'll be fine.
So tired of being sick,
Jessi

You're better off without him
Don't call him
He's b-re-ak-in-g your heart.

He's hanging with your best friend
And you're waiting there
It's tearing you a/pa/rt

He lied to you a thousand times

Posted at 08:36 pm by BlackandWhite
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Tuesday, November 11

so sick of being tired... and oh so tired of being sick

We're both such magnificent liars.

Aren't we though...

Ahem...

Anyways. I am just sitting here bored. Some one's been calling for like 5 minutes but i can't find my phone! Jesus. Bow chicka bow wow... Ummm This is so incredibly pointless. Nick got me in a tbs mood so now I cant get them outta my head. I COULD BE YOUR BEST BET LET ALONE YOURE WORST EX. I WANNA HATE YOU SO BAD... BUT I CAN'T... Hmm. Sorry. Outburst. Mmm I found a mini crunch bar! Yumm. What is 'to cook' in spanish? Cocinar? Cocina is kitchen... cocinar i think. I dunno. I keep thinking about what Ms Isaac said. I don't know why. "Jessica you gotta talk to the other Jessica". And I knew what she meant... and I just nodded. Pointing crap out like that to me, agh. If only she knew. *shakes head.* DON'T BOTHER TRYING TO EXPLAIN ANGEL I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT GOES ON.... Mmm.... Wowza. Haha I have never said that before. Listening to tbs is getting me maddish like. I dont know why. Take the time to talk about it think a lot and live without it don't believe me when I tell you it's something unforgivable best friends means, well best friends means You never knew well i never told you... everything I know about breaking hearts .. i learned from you... I need to stop listening to TBS so you won't have to deal with lyrics every two seconds. Lol. But I can't help it. I wanna read "What my mother doesn't know". AGAIN. For like the 10th time. I love that book so much. Its so good man. I love it. Must read. I'm finding Jay's Journal to give to Mark. That was actually the best book ever written. It is so good. I remember reading it for the 1st time and I was shocked that this is the journal of an actual guy who killed himself. I've got the mic and you've got the moshpit. This was the most pointless entry ever.

Its times like these when silence means everything!

I KNOW YOU WELL ENOUGH TO KNOW YOU NEVER LOVED ME!
~Jessi

Yay I only said LIKE once... score

Posted at 01:39 pm by BlackandWhite
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Survery like thing

1. Name: Jessica
2. Nickname(s): Jochum, Jessi, Bebe, Eggie, Yoke, Yoke'um Jay, the golden egg...

3. Siblings: none
6. What are you wearing right now?: hahaha.... boxers and my smoking stops here t-shirt

7. Sign: libra
8. Where do you live: in the armpit of america
9. Sex: femaley
10. Righty or lefty: Righty

ON GUYS FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT (for girls only)
11. Boxers or briefs: boxers
12. Long or shorthair: mmm longish but not longer than mine.... TWIN!
13. Tall or short: taller than me
14. Six pack or muscular arms: neither... muslces.. eh.
15. good or bad guy: Mmm, depends
16. Hat or no hat: ....how retarded. some hats can be hot though like when his hair is coming out of the bottom.. you know what i mean
17. Ears pierced or not: not
18. Tan or fair: they cant be paler than me (so i guess that leaves all of them)
19. Dimples: awwww dimples!!!!! i love them when you get them in your chin, Kara has one its so fun
20. Stubble or neatly shaven: depends
21. Studly or cutie: cutie

ON GIRLS FOR GUYS TO FILL OUT (for guys only)
22. Regular underwear or thong:
23. Painted nails or not:
24. Bra or sports bra:
25. Cute n' mysterious or wild n' sexy:
26. Dressy or casual:
27. Dark or blonde hair:
28. Long or short hair:
29. Dark or light eyes:

30. Long or short nails:
31. Hat or no hat:
32. Good or bad girl:
33. Funny or serious:
34. Jewelry or none:
35. Tall or short:
36. Bossy or laid back:
37. Curly or straight hair: ch
38. Tan or fair:
39. Indoor girl or party chick:
40. Freckles or none:

*~EVERYONE~*
41. Chocolate or white milk?: chocolate milk
42. Root beer or dr pepper? dr pepper
43. Mud or Jell-O wrestling? ....ooh dear god. ms u told us in college she jello wrestled. that was so disturbing. ew.
44. Skiing or boarding?: skiing mahh! i remember that day... feb 1... the day i died
45. Day or night: day bc its so happy and cheerful but then the night bc its easier to think and the ***stars

46. Summer or winter? summer is to hot but i like vacation. winter though bc i can play in the snow
47. Cake or pie? eww neither
48. Silver or gold? silver
49. Diamond or pearl?: pearl
50. Sunset or sunrise?: sunset

51. Have you ever broke/sprained/fractured a bone?: yes
52.Do you have any piercings? i just got my ear peirced

53. What is your favorite color? to many
54. Do you wear any rings? all the time i feel naked without them
55. Do you hate any one? nope
56. What's your favorite band/singer? to many to mention

'57. Who do you dream about? pretty much everyone

58. Do you have a crush on someone right now? i suppose

59. Who's the loudest friend/friends? theyre all pretty loud

60. Who's the quietest friend? kara definately

61. Who do u tell yr dreams to? whoever is willing to listen

PART II HaVe U eVeR---------

1. Been so drunk you blacked out : no
2. Missed school cuz it was raining: sure who hasn't
3. Put a body part on fire for amusement:? uh..I don't recall

4. Been hurt emotionally:? yes
5. Kept a secret from everyone:? yes
7. Cried during a Movie:? HAHHA i cried during lilo and stitch... dear lord
9. Ever thought an animated character was hot? me and jamies obsession with haku and tombo... hahaha
10.Had fantasies:? who hasn't
11. Been on stage: plenty of times
12. Cut your hair? myself? ...yes

----FaVoUrItEs----
13. Shampoo:? this kiwi melon stuff i had once... "Jessi... your.. hair... smells... good..." -kara
14. Soap: whatevers in the shower

15. Color: didnt i answer this already

16. Day/Night: and this
17. Summer/Winter: and this too?!

18. Lace or satin: umm?
19. Fave cartoon Character: ah man...
20. Fave Food: mmm bagels
21. Fave Advert: ?
22. Fave Movie: st elmos fire... bueller.. pretty in pink... totoro!... kikis delivery service... many more
23. Fave Ice Cream:

24. Fave Subject: fashion tech and english definately
25. Fave 'normal' Drink(s): kiwi strawberry snappleeee

26. Fave Person to talk to: i like to talk to different people about different things... i tend to get into "deep" conversations with jamie b

RIGHT NOW------------------

27. Wearing: answered this already

28. Hair is: down and stupidified
29. I'm feeling: bored bc i am doing this
30. Eating: cheetos
31. Drinking: capri sun
32.Thinking about: nothing
33. Listening to: punk rock princess by something corporate just ended so now this is how we will meet by september satellites

IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------

34. Cried: 24 hours ago was 12 so no! WAHOO.. but.. 28 hours ago... yes

35. Worn a skirt: no
36. Met someone new: yup
37. Cleaned your room: yup
38. Done laundry: nope
39. Drove a car: nope
40. Kissed someone: yup

??DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------

41. Yourself: you have to

41. Your friends: of course i love them
42. Santa Claus: yeah man
43. Tooth Fairy:? no...

44. Destiny/Fate: yes and no
45. Angels: yup
46. Ghosts: yup
47. UFO' s :yup

48. Love: of course i believe in love

--------FRIENDS AND LIFE--------

48. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope
49. Like anyone?: these questions are so repetitive

50. Who's the loudest: and again
51. Who's the shyest: and again
52. Who's the weirdest: theyre all weird
53. Who do you go to for advice: mostly jamie b and bebe and jill and willie, theyre really good listeners, thank you guys
54. Who do you cry to? same as above
55. When did you cry the most:? when stupid crap happens
56. What's the best feeling in the world? knowing you have snapple downstairs and a bagel waiting for you and all is well in the world of Jessi

Posted at 11:58 am by BlackandWhite
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Sicklike, indeeeeed

Woke up at 9. Not cool. I had a bad headache (not one of those migraines thank god, I would have kill myself.) and my stomach hurt last night around 11ish, but I only have the headache now. Bllleh. Figures its my day off, huh? I have a cough too, it sounds so retarded. Its all like... wimpy.. and retarded.. Kinda like.. a.. well I cant describe it. Today I guess Ill just hang out around the house and watch movies (if my ps2 doesnt kill the discs.) I think I will watch how the grinch stole christmas (the cartoon one!) I havent seen that mobie in like... 10 years. I wish I had some Christmas Tradition and watched it every year on christmas eve, but I have no traditions. I guess this year I'll have to make some one. WIll I stick to them? Probably not.
I feel tons better about Bebe and Shane. I really do. I wish them the best of luck and loveee to them! Yay, lol.
I'm gunna try to get some hw done and watch the grinch!
Love until later,
-Jessi

my name is spoken and it sounds better than it ever could on any lips but yours!

P.S. I am gunna cut down on saying "Like". I say it way to much. Atleast I'm not all like "Like like this and then like this happened like like totally." At the end of every entry Ill see how many "likes" i put in. Hopefully it will help me cut down.

Posted at 09:47 am by BlackandWhite
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Monday, November 10

yaaaawn

Man, I am so tired. Scott just left and all I have to say is yawn. We watched simpsons, daria, and harry potter. How that added up to 5 hours.. I will never know. No anime was involved - shocked. I guess thats all I can say...? Hehe. I am amazed b/c I -shared- my -last snapple-. I love my snapple to much to share the last one but I shared! GO ME. Sammy (my dog) didnt like Scott. She kept on growling and barking at him. That never happens. Sammus loves everybodaaay! Ahh well. Buttons though was nice to him... weird. I never realized how long Harry Potter was.... hahaha. I haven't seen that movie in forever. We were gunna watch Family Guy but the ps2 was being retarded and like eating the disk. It was going Mahhrdhfhgsdfsdfds. Seriously too. My jacket smells like axe! I wonder how. Hmm. Maaaan I am sooo tired. I feel mucho better about the situation from earlier today. So in conclusion today wasn't so bad, was it? "You're so hot I have to blow you out!" hahahah oooh dear lord... Welp, I'm "outie"
Love until sooner or later,
~Jessi

One day I'll spill your coffee...
      One day you'll break my fall...
             One day... I'll never go back....
                   This time...

You're arms are open to me tonight.
Tonight.. I'll be alright

Posted at 10:51 pm by BlackandWhite
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Word of wisdom from Natalie

"Jessi dunny #dos, you are not supposed to cry when wearing a cute outfit. Its like... against the law."
-Natalie dunny numero uno in math

One thing. When you do cry. Take off your eyeliner or mascara or whatever beforehand. Me and Bebe looked like we were crying the whole day, when it was only for 15 minutes. And I don't even wear mascara.

Posted at 03:49 pm by BlackandWhite
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