Why am I so happy? Hm. Go figure.
Eeee..... Haha... okay- so went to Scotts around 2ish and we decorated his tree (he is very stubborn about that... the ornaments have to be in the riiiight place... but it was a lot of fun... all the picture ornaments...hehe). Then watched ICE AGE- that movie is awesome. So sad though... but really good. Exchanged gifts- sorta. I refused to open mine (i am waiting til tomorrow morning... its gunna be hard- temptation is killing me), but he didn't wrap one gift- A MINI EFFING TREE. *big smile* So happy! Eee.. its going in my bedroom next to my bed. Then we watched both ace venturas. Those movies are great. Calvin Klien... oh dear lord *blushes*. His mom walked in... eep. Not good. First Diana, then his mother. Yikes. Oh well- its all good. I thought I was gunna get murdered when i got home bc i said i'd be home around 6... not 7. But my mom didn't care. Yay! This was definately by far the best christmas eve -ever-. I got to spend it with someone I really care about- and thats what christmas is all about, to me it is atleast. I'm in the christmas spirit too. 'Bout time! On the way back here that song i love... don't know the title but it goes, "Last christmas I gave you my heart but the very next day you gave it away this year to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special" came on- but this time JIMMY EAT WORLD was singing it. I was like... ee... great song... great band... christmas... all combined! Only downside about tonight- my jaw is sore. Dunno why but its all.. hurtful.. lol. hahaha "rated PG for innuendo". Sorry I just saw that- thats great. George of the Jungle 2 looks stupid... I loved the first one. I remember going to NC with my grandma way back when and I didnt wanna leave the house without my blanket.. so we brought it to the movies with us. Man.
Merry Christmas [eve] you guys. I mean it with all my heart. 
She signed it, "I'll love you always, and forever",
-Jessi

Its been an everclear night for this one. Okay just SANTA MONICA and PALE GREEN STARS but its everclear none the less. My mom is feelin' v sick, i feel bad I can't do anything. I watched the rest of the christmas shoes... my god... I cried for the last 45 mins of it. My eyes are so dry. I'm glad I cried though, bc it was over due and it got a lot out that needed to get out. That movie is just so sad... I hope I never lose someone as close as a mother to me. bleh. death. bad. Disco out. Techno in. Sorry- soco in my head.


oh god. im getting a bad migraine.. i need sleep but i -have- to stay up. crap it hurts. first day of vacation and this. its from the stress. this is what i get for letting it all build up.

wish i could leave this town.. you're somewhere... youre not around.

Stupid movie.

Man... adding to stress. So put in THE CHRISTMAS SHOES... watched that. Diana called at 4:50. I ran to her house. Lost an earring on the way. But I found it. Thank the lord. Gave her her gift I think she liked the checkboard tight things. Hung out with Diana, Jamie, Cory, Devin, and Zack. Had fun. Watched them play a little bit. Sean played drums. Daniel was eating a pillow. 7 minutes. About to bust out the dashboard. Me and Jamie thought up some lyrics- highly dashboard worthy. The broken pick. hah "its needs to be taped together.... like my heart." "Well... let the peices fall as they may..." Cory stole my manson jamie. Sigh. Shannon was there too... Had to leave early bc dianas aunt was coming. Almost walked home. Didn't really matter. I had fun though. Really. Felt good to be with friends. Zack tried to fix my sweater jacket. Didn't work. I felt awkward as his face face was like... <--> that far from my chest. Jamie had to supervise us. Jacket didn't get fixed. I love this jacket. I can wear it as a cape though... heh. Diana falling on a skateboard. Zack dropping me into the ground. Me chasing him. I got dirt in my mouth. Bleh. The tech bag. Why -does- he have chips in his bag? Kevin is not behind the christmas tree , I'll admit i did check though.
Got home around 7... I really need to talk to scott... gah...
It's gunna be a long night, better fix me a cup of coffee. Or atleast Snapple. Mmm... snapple.

Best friends can... become strangers....
-Jessi

Stressed doesn't even begin to describe it.

So got to school. Math=suckiness times 38472987985.... plus 2. On the way to M.A.P I was standing with some friends when some guy (pretty sure it was Kevin) comes up and grabs my ass i was like.. what the? But, whatever. MAP was retarded. Had to walk across papers and whatnot. I was stuck with "Urrica" and some other dude. I hate them. They hate me. So it all works. Didn't have spanish... so went to fashion tech. Never sew while stressed- it makes you mess up and then you get even more stressed. Making a scarf seemed like the hardest thing ever, even though they tqake 5 minutes to make and is the simplest thing ever. Science. *shakes head*. So scott got the pictures developed- you know the ones that have the candid shots of me in there. We'll just say one of those pics is now on Mr M's board. Watched Twister. Good movie. Didn't talk to patty or anyone though - i thought like if one more thing pissed me off i'd bite someone's head off. Lunch=suckness. As always. Bebe skipped and came to our lunch which was cool.. but i didn't even talk to her. Or to like anyone for that matter. ENglish.. watched Major Payne. I think. Wasn't paying attention. Talked to Diana- she was about as stressed as i was but over different issues. Lsn watched Remember the Titans. Health did a review and I won 4 peices of chocolate- very good comfort food. Zack and Devin rode the bus home with Diana... twas weird. I havent had a convo with Zack really since last halloween when he asked me out and I said no... jgfg that party was not good. Not good at all. Hah, I remember me being paranoid the whole night... bc i knew what the end was coming of it all. But me and Zack are cool now. Yay. I wanted to talk to Diana about everything, but i couldn't. Not with Devin and Zack there. They wouldn't understand.
Scotts not coming tonight. So... i guess that means i am planless for the night. Might go to Diana with zack and devin and cory. Jamie might come to.
Oy vey its been a long day... I'm so glad i won't have to see a bunch of people for 12 days. 12 whole days. Thank god.
-Jessi

I know the correct lyrics are "we're both such magnificent liars" but i think the other way fits this situation. *growl*

Today was pretty mediocre, coulda been better- coulda been a looot worse. First off Happy Bday to Scott... poor thing was home with an ear infection- blah. Hope he feels better by tomorrow... we're most likely exchanging gifts then and he cant be sick for that ;)
I woke up at 6:33. Frick. I got dressed brushed my hair and teeth and put on deodorant and ran out the door with not a second to spare. Suck.
Math was lame... but I ate cookies so its all good. Ms Isaac freaked out on us. "I AM PRETTY NICE (yeah right.) TO YOU ALL AND VERY LENIANT (sure.) BUT WHEN YOU TAKE ADVANTAGE PARTS I GET MAD IM SICK OF BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH FROM NOW ON NO FOOD OR CANDY OR BATHROOM PASSES OR ANYTHING!!!!" We were like, what the frick?
Spanish watched the rest of Jingle All The Way. Phil Hartman rocks my socks.
Fashion tech I MADE AN EFFING STOCKING. Its v cool.
Science watched TWISTER. Awesome movie. "NO SHE DID NOT MARRY YOU FOR YOUR PENIS!!!" That is the best line ever. Ever ever.  I heard that and patty (HES FINALLY BACK!!!) looked at me and we were laughing for like 5 minutes straight saying that over and over again.
Lunch- gave Jamie her bracelet. She said she loves me. Yay- hearts! Diana gave me a pimpin necklace with a star on it and....the cutest earrings known to man kind. They are pink and black and white and *heart* i love them! And I was wearing my pink and black and white shirt so it all works!! *Love for diana.
English I tried fruitcake... Ew. Ew. Ew. DF SDFSDF. Chuck had to hold me down and make me eat it. It was so gross. It tasted like celery or something. I didn't wanna try it but Kevin and Chuck were like.. YOU HAVE TO EAT IT and all holding me down and whatnot. Once I sat down after eating it chucks face was like right in my chest i was like holy crap and he was like "IM NOT STARING AT YOUR BOOBS IM READING YOUR PIN". Sure. Watched the rest of October Sky. I love that movie now. Sigh. Good movie. Sad but good. Very good.
Lsn we were watching REMEMBER THE TITANS. Love that movie. I made Kevin sit by me, and we were talking- He is black I'm white (as in... the color of the font... not... skin color... just clarifying)
Soo.. you still going out with that guy?

Heh... I'm thinkin' about last night when I was talking to Scott when Kara was here- and she goes "*reads IM*LAST FRIDAY? WHAT WAS LAST FRIDAY JESSICA! TELL ME OR I SHALL SMITE YOU! YOU WILL BE SMITTEN! AND SMOTE" Hahaha I can't stop thinking about her saying that.  I'm sad- my PS2 has died. It won't play any of my CDs- "Disc Read Error" for all of them, no DVDs (it wont even read Kiki *cries*), and the only game it would play is the first DDR. Sigh. What am I going to do?! Sigh. I'M THINKIN' ITS A SIGN THAT THE FRECKLES IN OUR EYES ARE MIRROR IMAGES AND WHEN WE KISS THEY'RE PERFECTLY ALIGN! God, can't get postal service out of my head. Tomorrow is Natalie's -AND- Scotts birthday... Uh oh. Already gave Scott his gift last saturday which is good. Still need to give him is crappy xmas gift. Speakin' of which- Kara loved her gifts! I'm so happy... she said she liked the scarf the most but I know she liked the $20 gift card to Target more lol. She wore her scarf all day and was commenting on it I felt so happy and proudful. Lol. Proudful... OMGGG she got me LOTION THAT SMELLS LIKE CREAMSICLES (DIES) AND LIP JANK THAT SMELLS LIKE IT TOO!!! Oh man I put it on and was like... I SMELL... CREAMSICLES... and we were putting it all over ourselves. Tomorrow I go back to school... whats the point? I know Mr M will make us do work... Miesowitz faaaaag. Fashion Tech omg WE ARE MAKING EFFING STOCKINGS. Yes! I might not go to school on tuesday and go to Wade Elem instead and hang out with my mom's class and watch movies with them and whatnot. Theyre having a party so hey why not go? But I dunno... somethings tellin me to go to school. Mm whatever. I finished reading that A CHRISTMAS MEMORY story. It ended so sadly... the cousin and dog, Queenie, both died. And Buddy was sent to the army i think. Thats so sad... I have to do a packet on that book- due tomorrow... I haven't started, suppose I should soon. Oh! PETEY GOT A GIRLFRIEND!! *CRIES*! Man I miss my pete! I love him so much. I mean I kinda have to- what with me knowing him since I could walk and talk. I found a picture of me and him in the 1st grade and I sent it to him- and he sent it to like 4398237894 people. They can look at our hotness selves.. Hahaha. I was talking to him and he goes, "So hows your boyfriend?" "Howd you know I have one?" "Well, I can pretty much assume you would"... Grar I miss him. I was gunna go see lord of the rings with him yesterday but since K was comin' over I couldn't. Man, I just miss him. We were so close as kids- I remember coming home from Kinder Kare and he'd be waiting outside for me. Hahah I was like 3. I found my class picture of the kids from Kinder Kare- OMG I saw Michael Degren and Lauren Russel in that picture!!! I was like HOLY SHIAAAT I KNOW THEM! Man those guys look EXACTLY the same. Thank God I look different then I did when I was like 4 (even though i "still look like I am 4" *snarl*) but I was so cuteses. I was lookin' thru baby pics of me and about ever 100 or so pictures there would be me with my index finger somewhat in my mouth- and I still do that. When me and Kara were takin pics I did that in one and then we found the pic of me when I was little doing that, it was insane. Then I found another pic of me doing that- BUT I WAS EATING MY LITTLE MERMAID BIRTHDAY CAKE! My God I am so cool. When I was little i -loved- polka dots, just like i do now! I had this pimp jump suit deal that was white with red stars, and then a dress with red and white polka dots, one with white nd blue dots, one with red and black, and just... man! Crazy times. How did I go from talking about me explaining friday night to kara to polka dots? Hm. Weird. Happy early bday to you guyses, i love you both!

I'm lost with out you~

Kara left. We had an awesome time. Her and greg came over (look at all the pics we took here) around 2 and while our parents talked we played Jenga: Truth or Dare. That was so fun i felt like a little kid again. I had to sing, and ACT LIKE A BELLY DANCER. That was so funny. Kara had to blow in my ear lol but she mostly avoided the colored blocks so she wouldnt have to do anything. The Jenga never fell over- it only did when greg had to tickle me and I kicked it over. I am so effing ticklish. Scott knows. Haha- greg got the dare to kiss me, "Oh no I am so not kissing her!" so he kissed Kara on the cheek- AWWWWWW. "Greg PLEASEEEE NO TONGUE" He is one horny 11 year old. Lol. Greg left around 3 or 4 and me and Kara played DDR and danced our pants off. Went to bed around 3 or 4 and woke up at 10... I had a baaad dream. Forgot what it was though- ever since we started watching OCTOBER SKY in english i've been having horrible dreams. Took Kara down to Wawa at 11 - listened to relient k the whole way there. Mostly just MOOD RING and IN LOVE WITH THE 80S (pink tux to the prrrrooooom! eeee) on repeat. I'm wearing the best shirt ever- my white CAMP SUPER STAR shirt i got from the CCPS 2003 reading and math academy- I helped out a few days down there so they gave me a free shirt. Hehe. I might wear it to school soon.

I have a migraine now. Certain people are stressing me out. Just shut up and stop being an arse. God. I -need- to get more assertive. Like, now. I let people walk all over me, say whatever they want to say, and they get away with it. I need to stand up for myself for once. Soemthing. I don't know.  I  think I'll write down lyrics to er calm me down.

 LITTLE GIRLS IN
JELLY SHOES

GOT THE
FERRIS BUELLER BLUES!

I feel 100% better. No sickness. Just musta came thru last night i suppose.
Here's some pictures I've been workin on this morning


Me!

Me and Jamie all neony

all of a sudden got hit with some virus. I went to the bathroom and BLEH threw my guts up.Sure you wanted to know that. One of my friends must be sick... its definately going around. Mark has something like it too. We're sick together. I'm feel better than I did around 930, but still queezy. I think I need to eat- all i ate today was string cheese, brownie, and a few chips. I mean I'm not starving myself or anything, I'm just not hungry and when I am hungry I'm like at school so I can't eat. Whatever. I'll be hungry by tomorrow, but after throwing up I kinda lost my appetite.My god everyone is seeing return of the king its driving me mad. Diana, Cory, like 5 of their friends including Andrew and David (i think?), and Scott and a bunch of Scotts friends. Its insane. I wanna go. Better i didnt though bc i woulda been sick at the movies... ewww....
Hope to feel better my the mornin' cuz K's comin at 2
-J